you dont fcking know whads th problem with your self.
think ure 'oh so mighty' &powerful with no faults at all?
think ure perfect &is thus allowed to criticise people who are
"stupider" than you?

whd th fck is tht.
why dont you reflect on yourself.
oh. sorry.
i forgot.
ure too proud to.

so whad if your parents back you up instead of me.
this is just pure biasness.
this means tht without their backing,
you would just fall &crumble.

ure like whad, 17 going on 18?
did you earn any money by doing part times?
contributed to this family?

oh noooo.
all you do is take.
whadevr you get you spend it on yourself.
you would only contemplate &procrastinate.

but even so,
its not all your fault.
its your parents fault tht you turned out this way too.
they made your head super big by praising you too much.
by asking us to get th same results as you.

"follow your brother la, then you get one ipod"
"wait till you reach jc &get th same results like your brother then you get your own laptop"
"when you get th same results as your brother then you tell me"

heard tht kind of small talk way too much a times.
guess whad,
i've had enough.

so whad if all this started out with you using my com.
I ASKED FOR IT BACK.
&whad did you do,
you plugged in your ipod for it to charge.

I TOLD YOU I HAD ITUNES.
&it will, ofcos, erase all your songs on your ipod &replace it with mine.
BUT WHAD DID YOU DO?
you asked me to " then not log in la "
as-a-matter-of-factly.
like this is your bloody computer.

IT IS MINE.
SO WHAD IF YOUR COMPUTER CRASHED.
MY FAULT IS IT.
AM I TO BLAME FOR YOU CRAMMING YOUR OWN COM WITH YOUR WORTHLESS FILES.

my fault tht your ipod no batt issit?
my fault tht my account have itunes issit?
my fault tht your com crashed is it?
my fault tht you have a bungalow chalet tmr is it?

oh, i forgot, yet again.
YOU ARE TO BLOODY PROUD TO EVEN REFLECT ON ALL THOSE.

you said i was crazy when i cried.
like you think you know me enough?
you dont even know yourself enough.
dont come judge me when you dont know th basic facts of me.

i wish tht when ure 19 you will just go off for NS
&never come back for another 6 years or sth.
at least by th time you come back,
i would've treated you like a stranger.

i dont quarrel with strangers anyway.

so whad if ure bloody smart.
whads th use of it if your eq is so fcking low.
all you do is lie.

&yet mummy daddy turn a blind eye to it.

when you say ure attending a cca,
ure actually going to your friend's house,
followed by shopping.

when you say ure going to watch a movie,
ure actually attending a concert.

so whad if you turned th tables
&made it look like its all my fault.
so what.

i cry.
so what.

so what if you've got mum to scold me.
so what if you are better in your studies than me.
with that attitude of yours,
i dont think ure going anywhere.

so when dad &mum asked you if you wanted to go to th concert with me,
you declined, like you have no time to entertain your family or sth.
like you are like royalty,
whadver.

then when jia wanted to go with me,
we both each had to pay $40.
bloody mtherfcker.

yeah, so whad if when i complained to her she acted as if nth was happening.
so whad.
when you grow up &prove to be unfilial it will be too late by then.

i just wish now tht you;ve never been born.
either tht or you died during birth.
then at least i would have thought of you as a perfect brother.
as a brother who would at least care &concern.

then at least i wont hate you like how i am now.
instead i would be thinking whad it would be like if you were alive,
how good a brother you would be.
&not how bloody infuriated when i see you come in thru th doors.

you cant imagine how both unhappy &happy to enjoy these two days without your presence.
as you would be leaving for your fcking chalet.
but alas, its only two days.
think about how it would be better if it was four,
or five,
or one year,
or ten.

anyway, th more th merrier.